When you can't enjoy what you do have -- what you imagine you do want -- becomes a longing. How do you know if you're experiencing this? It feels like being constantly disappointed. Disappointed with what you don't have -- things you long for.
This comes from negative feelings from the past -- that are still hanging around -- spoiling every good thing you do have. So, it's probably time to move on.
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